Am I bad

Call me Celena.I dont know if I have to shre dis wid u.But i caannot tell dis to my friends. I hav sexual affair with my cousin.Since I was a kid. i think I was 7 though no penetration happened during that time until I reach 15.I dnt know what to do.I am abuse and let it happen for exchange of small favors like letting me play with gameboy,family computer etc.I was young during that time.Now I cannot stop him.Just want to share it.I am 18 right now and .I am afraid that no one will believe me.

My family or my bf?

First, thnx for having this blog since I really need advice right now. I am 23 yrs old, and a very good daughter. I fell in love with someone whom my family believes to be lower than they expected. I really love him but I am afraid that my family will think that I disappoint them if
I continue our relationship.
My bf is a vocational graduate. And my mom cannot accept that. He thinks I desrve someone better than him. though I love him very much, I dont think I can fight for him. Please advice me of what to do...
I'll appreciate your thoughts...

- Lina-